It is interesting to read how you go about your work. I wonder how many others will comment and perhaps comment on how similar or different are their own experiences.

I feel somewhat in awe of all those who make the change to self employment and realising themselves and their particular talents.

Unfortunately and possibly because of conditioning or my social and cultural environment, I never managed to make that change work for me. In the main that was because whenever I was doing my own thing and feeling good about it, I would seem to attract women whom I found attractive. Probably, it was that way because at those times I *was* attractive because I felt good, confidernt and fulfilled - happy even.

So, three times I wound up married and responsible, as a single bread-winner for wife and children. Three times I felt I must take on a 'proper' job, which meant working for the man. Three times I became increasingly depressed and an impossible person with whom to live. Three times, my sense of obligation and responsibility caused my relationships to break down.

Now, alone, alienated from ex partners and children, without friends, forced into retirement and with only two black dogs for company - one welcome and one not - I have the benefit of hindsight and can see my mistake.

So, your piece resonates with me. I would urge anyone who has the yen to realise themselves, on their own terms, to give it a go and, regardless of whether it is a regime such as yours or another, to stick with what works for them, with diligence and tenacity, regardless of the pressures or temptations to do otherwise. For, my view now is that only through fulfilling oneself and one's own satisfaction can you experience a fulfilling life.

The compromise that conditioning all too often creates are the enemy of self fulfillment and, in my view, only through self-fulfillment can one be best equipped to contribute to someone else's.

So, thanks Mark. What you write makes sense to me, even though I have no affinity with you tube and cannot abide video learning ... and of course, I mean no offence by saying that but do so only to show that one can always learn from or have affinity with another, regardless of also having differences.